Okay, firstly to warn you, this post is probably a bit deep and reflective, so if you're not in the mood for reflective reading, then perhaps give this one a miss.
Recently I've been highly aware of my own personal happiness. I am at a stage in my life where it's okay to take the time to think about what makes me happy and, if I'm not happy, to change my situation in order to reach that state of self-contentedness. It's selfish, and it's okay.
I suppose that my methods for achieving inner peace might not be acceptable to some; I don't have a career yet and I have probably been a bit irresponsible with the rock n' roll lifestyle. Some would describe my sabbatical as 'putting real life on hold' and, in certain respects, I have put it on pause for a year to see what else is out there. Except that I don't really think my life is on hold at all. I would say that it is the exact opposite. These last four months have been unbelievably dynamic and so so rich with new experiences.
Lately, the way I've found myself spending my days (and nights) has been the absolute definition of 'living'. I've encountered so many different experiences, all of which are adding to my accumulative bank of memories which form who I am. This period of time is one of growth. I am so clear now about who I am, what I stand for and what I am or am not willing to accept from those around me. This can only be learnt through experience, it can't be taught, nor can anyone else try to help you learn it. You must discover it for yourself.
I think that the only way one can truly grow is by stepping out of his or her comfort zone and broadening one's horizons. It's about meeting new people and doing things you might not normally do. Looking back on it all I can probably tick the 'Miss Adventurous' box. These past four months have given me a plethora of crazy tales to tell but, most importantly, I am now in a space of self-contentedness.
In one of my favourite books,
Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, she writes about happiness. I find it profound. Feast on her words, even re-read them if you fancy:
"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."
These words ring true for me. Of course achieving happiness is a constant effort, yet it is one with reward. Have you found true happiness?